🧩 Where Did My Childhood Go? — Reconnecting with My Inner Child

For as long as I can remember… I haven’t really remembered.

My childhood is mostly a fog. I don’t remember the toys I loved, the games I played, or even how I felt in the world back then. As I’ve begun diving into my shadow work and spiritual healing, I’ve noticed something: I’ve become obsessed with building Lego sets—something I never really touched as a child, but now? I feel my inner child reaching out through every little brick.

I think she’s ready to be found. And I think I’m finally ready to meet her.

Sometimes my beautiful Freya would prefer for me to play with her instead of the Lego!

🌱 Why I’m Exploring My Past

This journey goes deep. The missing memories aren’t just an inconvenience—they feel like missing pieces of me. I’ve noticed that as I age, I’m forgetting even more. And I don’t want to lose it all. I want to know who I was—the good, the bad, and the tender in-between.

So I’ve started asking questions. Following instincts. Creating rituals. And maybe you’re here because you’re curious too.

🔍 Here’s What I’m Doing to Remember

If you also feel like parts of your past are missing, you might want to try these gentle steps with me:

1. Ask Your Family for Help

Even if it feels a little awkward, reach out to a parent, sibling, cousin, or grandparent. Ask:

• What did I love to play with as a kid?

• Do you remember any stories from when I was little?

• What kind of kid was I? Curious? Quiet? Loud? Kind?

Sometimes the way others saw us holds keys we’ve forgotten.

2. Journal Prompts for Remembering

Light a candle, put on some music from your early years, and try writing from these prompts:

• I remember feeling safe when…

• My favorite toy might have been…

• I think I loved…

• I wish I could ask my younger self…

• One thing I wish I could remember is…

Even if nothing clear comes up at first, write anyway. The act of writing stirs memory.

3. Play On Purpose

I’ve been letting myself play. No judgment. No rules. Just building things with Lego and letting my imagination lead. Maybe for you it’s coloring, skipping stones, riding a bike, or building a fort under your dining room table.

Let yourself be small again, if only for a moment. Your inner child may come out to join you.

4. Tune Into Senses

Try remembering through:

• Smell – crayons, play-dough, shampoo, laundry detergent

• Taste – childhood snacks, favorite meals

• Music – lullabies, 70s/80s hits, TV theme songs

• Textures – soft pajamas, blankets, grass beneath bare feet

Sometimes memory hides in the senses more than in words.

💬 Let’s Talk Together

I’m opening up the comments on this post because I want to hear from you:

• Have you ever struggled to remember your childhood?

• What helped you reconnect?

• Is there a toy, song, or food that brings you back?

You don’t have to go it alone. This blog is a cozy place for curious hearts like ours.

If you're on this journey too, know this: You don’t need perfect memories to heal. You just need curiosity, softness, and a willingness to listen when your inner child knocks.

Sometimes remembering is a spiral. Sometimes healing is a Lego set. Sometimes the past returns through the door of play.

Blessed Be,

Bobbi Ann

Still piecing it together, one memory at a time.